I believe that while loving yourself is NOT gonna make all your problems go away, you’re going to be a lot stronger to face anything. Besides, you’ve got the most important person in the world to face it with. Yourself.

My purpose of life is to live, to make things happen instead of just waiting for it to happen. I long to travel the world! Experiencing much of the world! I want to help people realise that:

YES. It’s possible to be happy! And YES, it’s perfectly OKAY to be happy.

Some people think they don’t deserve happiness, and that they can’t be happy no matter what. Well let me tell you something, the cliche saying “Happiness comes from within” has a reason for it to become a cliche.

Many people believe it and say it too often that it becomes a cliche, but it doesn’t stop it for being true.

I just realised that, while I’m currently so far to where I want to be in so many aspects of my life, I realised that:

YES. I’m still able to be happy no matter what wants I have.

Sure, I want a £10,000/month income (who doesn’t),
Sure, I want to travel the world,
Sure, I want to party everyday (OK, maybe I don’t)~
but the bottom line is, I don’t have all these things yet, but I’m perfectly happy.

You know why?

Because I know I still have soooooooooooooooooooooooo many good things in my life that I’m grateful for. Thinking of these things and the people that I care about reminds me that yeah, I’m a lucky bastard.

But it doesn’t mean that I’m just gonna sit here and do nothing. No! What this means is that while I want these things, these are not key drivers to my happiness. I still want them. And better yet, now I chase my dreams and goals with enjoyment.

No more: if I have ________, I’ll be happy.

when I get ________, I’ll be happy.

I think I finally realised and believe that happiness is a state of mind. It doesn’t depend on circumstances. Circumstances play its part, but you still have a choice of whether or not you are happy.

So yeah, I enjoy my life. And I am going towards even a better life. To infinity and beyond! :)

For the first time in my life, I am thankful for 10 (yes, T-E-N!!!) things just in the first 1.5 hours of being awake. I woke up at 7:30 and I am thankful for all these things by the time it’s 9:00am.

1. For the good breakfast that I had
2. For the good sleep that I had
3. For a good dream I had
4. For not being late to get the train
5. For the clothes that I wear to work (casual Friday)
6. For the warm office I am going to
7. For the short walks in the morning
8. For the good deed I did this morning
9. For the wicked nice weather :)
10. For it’s Friday!

That’s nice :)

What about you?

In this post, I want to talk about my running. I have started going to gym for the past month of so after a long hiatus (around 3 months. I know! It’s winter!). So far it’s been good, and I’ve been concentrating on building endurance. I aim to go 3 times each week, with 2 of them at the gym, and the other one with Badminton as a variation.

So far, I’ve managed to go 3 times a week (YAY!) except for last week. Last week I missed Saturday Badminton and this week I missed Gym Monday (no~ I do not intend to give them names! This is purely for definition only.)

I have legitimate reasons for these absence (albeit it still is lame to come up with excuses):

• Overexercise
  Unfortunately, this week I have overestimated my abilities by deciding to increase the level of my training by 2 points (1-20 scale). I was a bit bored and feeling like I needed to challenge myself more. But turns out, my body wasn’t strong enough to handle the change. As a result, after 2 sessions, my body was starting to get really tired and even though I had a long sleep (10 hours!) I was still not getting my stamina back. On Sunday I decided that I should still to go despite my tiredness and I was already on the treadmill when I figured that I am simply too tired and I needed to get some rest. That’s why last week I only go for 2 sessions instead of the target 3.
• Upset stomach
  On Monday, after a good rest and good sleep, I was feeling alright, even great. But then suddenly my stomach got upset and I was feeling bad. I thought I might have food poisoning or something, but turns out that a nice cup of tea helped calm my stomach. However, still I felt that I shouldn’t push my body right after it got its stamina back. I figured I should give it a bit more rest before going to exercise again.

And after all these excuses, here I am! No more excuses, no more stomachache. So today I decided that it’s time for me to get back on my feet again. I didn’t go to gym today, but I went for a run near my neighborhood. I admit I’m getting a bit bored by going to gym and needed some variation, therefore jogging outdoors seem to be a good idea.

At first I wasn’t sure that the weather is nice and warm enough for me to jog. But you know what, I’ve seen people do it so I figured why can’t I do it. And second of all, if you keep waiting for nice weather, well! In England that doesn’t happen very often you know :) So I just went and did it.

It was bloody cold. I thought it would get warmer as I run~ but it’s a lie. I’m telling you, LIE! Ok not that bad. But it didn’t get as warm as I would like it to.

And turns out, after checking my route on Google Maps, I was running for something like 3.5 miles. That’s 5K :) :) So that’s good. Very good. But I was struggling with my breath and stamina so I need to improve that.

But overall I’m very happy with my progress, especially that I’m also watching what I eat. More on that later.

So tomorrow I might run again to make up for last monday. And then Friday off.

Coolio :)

Yiipppieee :)

So what’s the conclusion for today’s post?

• 2 Posts each week, consistently.
• Running / exercise ~ 3 times a week. Still on!
• Good progress, should give myself a congratulations. Congratulations, Dania :)
• Watch what I eat ~ I even keep a diary. Keep doing it!

Until next time!

1. Positivity
2. Easy to be with
3. High-spirit
4. Courageous
5. Fun & loving

These are the traits that I want to have in me. I find these traits in people I admire. I can safely say that these five people are the people that inspires me to grow. Some people I’ve known them all my life, some our paths crossed (and hopefully again in the future), and some I never met.

1. Positivity
There is one person that I can attribute this to. This person is always positive, always looking at the bright side. Hardly ever complain. Seriously, hardly ever. Dislikes conflicts and likes positive atmosphere. This person is: Kamil.

2. Easy to be With
In Aston University, I met someone who I think very highly although we don’t spend that much time together. I mean we do, but probably just not as much as we could have or at least I wanted. This person is always striking up conversations everywhere he goes, easiest chat for hours and just so easy to be with. This person is: Neil.

3. High-spirit
I was told that I should only pick one greatest quality in one person that I really admire. From this person I pick high spirit. Actually, this quality doesn’t serve her fairly because ~ trust me ~ she is much much more than that. She is strong (perhaps also strong-headed :P), she is knowledgeable and wicked smart, she is tough but full of love, and she is cheerful. She is in her 80s and she hasn’t lost her charm even a bit. This person is: Titih, my grandma.

4. Courageous
If there is a great sadness in this world is that people follow something blindly without adjusting it to fit themselves. Be it religion, society’s morality conduct, or just general rules. This person is the opposite. This person thinks according to his heart ~ at least that’s his message. I admire Paulo Coelho because he spreads the message of being true to yourself, taking risks, and be open and let things be. I don’t know nothing about Paulo Coelho as a person so I don’t want to admire him, but I do love his message.

5. Fun & loving
This is the person that NEVER EVER fails to amuse me. To cheer me up. To make me laugh. This is the person brings fun everywhere she goes. This is the little girl that I love to death. That I really, really, really love to death. My favorite person in the world. Terrific listener, great advices. She’s the smallest in the family but she has THE BIGGEST HEART. She is: my sister.

I want to get along with everyone, because I think life is too short to be at odds with someone. That means I don’t like conflicts and I try to avoid it. Although I also can’t lie that there are certain types of people that really annoy me and I just can’t get along with them. But OK, so I won’t be able to get along with everyone. And that’s OK too. I want to be a positive person. I want to be strong. I want to take chances, proud to be who I am, and take risks. Most of all I want to make people laugh and feel loved.

I also have goals in my life:

1. Start my own company (which probably handles 2 businesses!) haha DREAM BIG man!!
2. Have financial abundance (because this is how you can help other people as well!) ~ and come on, living comfortably doesn’t hurt.
3. Have a beautiful house (home) I can call my own. (I have ideas in mind already)
4. Have a small, but loving and open family (dude, my dream since I was a kid hasn’t changed!)

I know that I am far from all these things. But this is who I want to be, and who I am meant to be. It all aligns and the dots are connected from when I was a kid. It’s shaped in its own way.

I feel like I’ve bared my soul. I’ve told you my dreams, my insecurities, my fears, my hopes. I feel like it’s enough for me to hide myself behind an awkward and weird girl. If I’m weird, so be it. I’ll just embrace it. The right people will stay. And those that leave… well there are always spots for newcomers.

Chin up! Chin up! :)

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Today I received another reply from my soon-to-be employer regarding the job that they offered me. I am quite surprised that they are quite strict in their examinations about me. They actually contacted the two referees I provided. And then they also wanted me to fill these gaps in months where I have not provided them with what I did during those times (Is my sentence kind of confusing? Sorry.)

Anyway – now they are asking me about my degree certificate and proof of my eligibility to work in UK.

I spose I will have them by next month. I hope that they will be patient enough and they trust me for this.

Until then, I can just pray :)